As creatures living an embodied existence, we live behind a kind of veil which restricts our comprehension of the totality of existence, which we can assume God understands perfectly. On our journey through life, we try to make sense of reality, because the mystery of the bigger picture fascinates us and some of us, if not all of us, want to make sense of the mystery. We are seeking certainty, peace, fulfillment, understanding, love and clarity.

At a certain stage in our spiritual journey, we may develop a fascination with the idea of God. This might be because we have suffered and have a desire to make sense of that suffering, it could be because we are affiliated with or drawn towards a religious community, or it could be because we are awestruck when we look into the sky and wonder how this vast universe came to exist.

My own spiritual search was ignited by the breakdown of my parents’ marriage and my mother’s illness with cancer. After my mother became unwell, she embarked upon a healing journey with the aim of recovering, and that journey led her into the world of spirituality. She became deeply interested in meditation and alternative therapies, and because I loved my mother dearly, her explorations ignited my own yearning for a deeper understanding of why human beings suffer and how they can heal.

My mother passed away from cancer after her various attempts to discover a path to healing did not lead to recovery. But the search for truth that her struggles had ignited in me continued to grip me, and in the years following my mother’s passing I immersed myself in New Age spirituality, eagerly reading books by teachers such as Deepak Chopra, Eckhart Tolle, Alan Watts, Brandon Bays and others, and attending various meditation retreats. As I continued to struggle to find peace of mind, my spiritual search eventually led me to attend psychotherapy.

The process of attending psychotherapy over a period of several years brought about a transformation of my character and helped me to understand why I was struggling so much on my spiritual journey. I learned a great deal about emotions, what they are and how to express them, and how we can gain stability from being able to express ourselves openly and honestly. But despite healing a great deal and learning so much about myself in my therapy sessions, I began to experience some very disturbing states of mind and had what would later be described by psychiatrists as an episode of psychosis, which led to an admission to psychiatric hospital.

During my stay in psychiatric hospital, I asked the staff on the hospital ward for a Bible, which I took back to my room and began to read with real interest. I had previously never read or understood the Bible in any real depth, despite having been taken to church sometimes and attended Sunday School as a child. But on this occasion, the Bible spoke to me in a deep and profound way, and I went through a process of getting to know Jesus, repenting of my sins, and entering into a personal relationship with God as I came to believe the words of Scripture and believe in the person and teaching of Jesus.

My whole life since that time has been focused on trying to discern the will of God and serve Him faithfully, as I have become convinced that a healthy relationship with God is the only true source of spiritual peace.

The books that you will find on this website reflect my understanding of philosophical and theological matters at different stages of my spiritual journey. They include personal testimony, theological and philosophical discussion, and other forms of writing I have used to express myself and try to encourage others on their own spiritual journey.

Wherever you find yourself on your walk through life, I hope you will find something in my writing to encourage or inspire you.